Guest blog by Kareem Starkes – J #56138
My name is Kareem Starkes, I am 47 years old and have been incarcerated in California since 1998. My sentence is 60 years to life. This sentence is a result of California’s “Three Strikes and You’re Out” law.
I have a prior felony conviction history consisting of one prior juvenile adjudication at age 17 and one prior adult felony conviction at age 20. The present conviction is my second adult conviction. The juvenile adjudication counted as a strike, resulting in my being sentenced per the three-strikes law.
From 1998 until 2009, the atmosphere in California’s prisons was extremely violent. This violent prison culture was fostered by both the inmate population as well as correctional staff. California’s prison system was then the California Department of Corrections (CDC) without the “Rehabilitation,” which was added after the federal government intervened. It became the California Department of Corrections and Rehabilitation (CDCR) because the federal government cited CDCR’s overcrowding as constituting cruel and unusual punishment for its inmate population. As a result, rehabilitation programming began to become more prevalent within CDCR’s institutions.
Personally, I have been in the “precontemplation stage” of change from the very beginning of this present term of incarceration. Conditions within the state prisons where I was incarcerated were such that violence was a day-to-day reality, and it was extremely difficult to consider anything aside from daily survival and prevention of being assaulted and/or killed. I chose a mentality of “go along to get along” as a means of my own survival. It was a choice that I made and lived out for almost 17 years of this term until both time and circumstances brought me to a place where I could no longer deny the necessity of my having to change.
My process of positive growth and transformation began in 2012 at the age of 36. It was then that I began to seek help and to do so by availing myself of the rehabilitative programming being offered within the institutional settings. Through rehabilitative programming, coupled with seeking to strengthen my spiritual principles and values and relationship with God, I began the process of self-exploration and assessment.
I began to embark upon the journey of deeply reflecting upon my life, in order to identify the points and times where I found myself in desperate emotional states which had negatively influenced my thought process and perspective. I began to identify why I chose to ultimately adopt self-destructive thinking that led to many of the poor choices and decisions that I have made. These resulted in being engaged in criminality and criminal acts that have been harmful to innocent persons, communities, and to myself.
Rehabilitative programming has been my catalyst for the process of positive growth, change, and the transformation I am blessed to have undergone. It continues to be a lengthy process and journey, nevertheless it is a noble and good endeavor that I feel privileged to be experiencing. I am constantly seeking to be engaged with any form of rehabilitative program and/or organization that may provide the knowledge, tools, and life skills necessary for me to be living a responsible and productive life, one that is rooted in my making living amends for all the wrong and harm I have caused others.
I have reached the place in my life where my daily focus has become being in service to others while paying forward the care, support, consideration, and love that so many good people have invested in me throughout my journey of change.
As I continue to endeavor rehabilitative programming, I learned of new and different programs that are available. I came to learn of the SMART Recovery program as a result of a rehabilitative course I engaged in called “Hustle 2.0”. In this course a listing of addiction recovery programs was given, including SMART Recovery. I had never heard of SMART Recovery before seeing it listed in that book. I asked my wife to go online and find information about SMART Recovery. After some investigation my wife was able to send an email to SMART’s headquarters in Mentor, Ohio and they began to communicate with me.
From there I received all the information needed to begin a SMART Recovery meeting. I absolutely love the SMART Recovery program and all of its Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) tools. The CDCR has only one CBT program called Cognitive Behavioral Intervention (CBI), which consists of two in-person group meetings. This CBI programming being offered through CDCR is a very good program, however, it is extremely difficult for interested persons to be placed into the program.
The great thing about the SMART Recovery program is that it is a CBT based program consisting of similar CBT based tools to CBI. The difference between the two is that unlike the CBI program, the SMART Recovery program is designed in such a way that no licensed clinician is needed to facilitate the program. Also, the program structure is such that any interested person desiring to begin a SMART Recovery meeting group may do so by simply following the SMART Recovery format and getting it going.
In this way, more of the population within our institutional community may be given the opportunity to be exposed to and avail themselves of the CBT tools and life skills necessary to bring about positive change. This happens without having to be placed on any waiting list and having their journey and process of recovery put on hold due to administrative determinants and constraints.
I am thankful for having received the support of the SMART Recovery staff I am in contact with. I presently facilitate two voluntary men’s support groups that I have created here at my facility. I am currently in the process of starting an InsideOut: A SMART Recovery Correctional Program® meeting group here at my facility. The InsideOut program is designed for incarcerated individuals. The men here will greatly benefit from the InsideOut program as I already have. Support for the InsideOut group beginning has been phenomenal with our community here, so I’m excited about the journey ahead of beginning SMART Recovery InsideOut here at Ironwood State Prison.
It is said that where one door closes, another is opened. SMART Recovery should be in all of CDCR’s institutions, and I am committed to doing my part in making this a reality. As CDCR has become committed to rehabilitative programming, there is absolutely no reason why SMART Recovery meetings and InsideOut are not at the top of CDCR’s rehabilitative programming list! Let’s Go SMART Recovery!
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Thank you so much for sharing! I am so happy to hear that you are finding peace with SMART Recovery! As for, Smart has saved my life. You brought tears to my eyes with your story. I am wanting to pursue the InsideOut through SMART Recovery. I am a SMART Recovery face to face facilitator. Your story makes me want to dive deeper into SMART. Helping others with SMART Recovery is another tool that I use to stay in my recovery. Thank you again for sharing. Shannon
Kareem – Thank you for telling your story and congratulations on your diligent work to bring the InsideOut program to others who can benefit. As I read your blog I was on the verge of tears.
I totally relate to stumbling on SMART Recovery, falling in love with the program and getting the generous support from SMART’s Ohio headquarters. They were so extremely helpful that I instinctively though, maybe volunteering is some kind of scam? I explored further and discovered that notion couldn’t be further from the truth. In my experience, SMART Recovery is a remarkable organization and the Family & Friends program that I get to facilitate – since 2015 – saves lives. Helping families understand and support their loved ones journey to recovery, using straightforward CBT skills, self-care and Community Reinforcement and Family Training (CRAFT), helps us rethink our responses to addictive behavior, grows a healthier family and empowers the person they care about to achieve success.
Kareem, You’re doing terrific work. I’m sorry you had to go through what you did to get where you are, but it is not for naught. Please keep going! The world needs you.
Truly, I will keep you in my prayers, from this day forward.
Thank you very much for sharing Kareem and for all you do <3