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    Tomorrow is 11 Months since my last drink. 15 December is my sobriety date since I celebrate knowing that day when I took my last drink that day, it was going to be the last I was going to have. I had 2 beers total that day knowing that was it. I hit a personal rock bottom last year, my marriage ended in divorce, I fell down a flight of stairs in a black out and tore my rotator cuff in my right shoulder. I have 1 DUI on my record and tons of other bad experiences due to alcohol, all by the age of 32. This is what I have learned in 11 Months sober:

    1.) Alcohol and drugs is a symptom of greater issues. My main issue is depression and anxiety. I drank for that instant gratification and high alcohol gave me but it always back fired. My depression and anxiety the next day was unbearable at times. I can now face my depression in a healthier way.

    2.) My demons know how to swim. Drinking away my pain, stress and sorrows only made my demons swim to the top. Getting sober I faced my inner most issues. And you know what? I am still ok!

    3.) Dealing with life sober is actually way easier than drunk everyday. I have a clear mind, even on my worst days, since I don't have alcohol 24/7 pumping through my bloodstream. Facing reality and day to day struggles is still tough for me, but you know what? I am sober, healthy and safe.

    4.) I love me. I have made some terrible mistakes in my past, one in particular I will always regret ( hurting my now ex husband so bad) but it all made me who I am today. The old me had terrible coping skills and did not know better. I live every day today being a better person than I was yesterday.

    5.) You own your recovery. Whatever path you take, as long as your recovery is your #1, own it. One day at a time. Whether it is AA or whatever, you will find what works for you the best in keeping you sober and growing as an individual.

    6.) I lost "friends". Bar buddies. As I grew, I had to change people, places and things. I stopped comparing myself to others "well, everyone drinks". No not everyone drinks and some people can go out and drink and be responsible. You know what? I can not. I lost the privilege a long time ago to drink like a normal drinker. I have an addiction to alcohol and bad things happen when I drink and I lose all control. I now love my iced coffee, sparkling waters and iced tea.

    7.) In the last 3 years of my drinking, I could not make it 24 hours sober. My instant sobriety was truly a miracle, God, and now aiming for 1 year mark.


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    Congrats on 11 months! You sound as if you have grown a great deal in recovery. Love your list of what you have learned. Awesome work!

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    Well done and an amazing post on what you have learned. Thanks for sharing!

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    Congratulations idavidi!
    Thanks for sharing what you have learned!

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    Very inspiring post.Congrats + thank you.

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    I wish i was that strong congrats

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    You are inspiring me today -- which is exactly what I need. Thank you!

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    Thanks for sharing...

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    That was an inspiring post - thankyou for sharing it.
    What got me sober was trying to get sober. Every time I lapsed, picked up, drank, I was thoroughly beaten. I thought at those times "there is no hope for me" Yet, when I had recovered from those thoughts just a little, I thought "have another go!" It was a lot of little sparks, rather than a flame, that got me here.

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    I liked to hear your story and stories like that inspire me to keep from not using. Keep it going. Congrats to you

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    Your authentic story is truly beautiful. I particularly like ;
    4.) I love me. I have made some terrible mistakes in my past, one in particular I will always regret ( hurting my now ex husband so bad) but it all made me who I am today. The old me had terrible coping skills and did not know better. I live every day today being a better person than I was yesterday.

    many times I have not 'loved me', I've felt like a fraud, like a wannabe...in my short sobriety I'm starting to feel legit, and worthy. 1 month ago I was rudderless and unfocussed, today I feel more empowered than ever.
    I spent my evening with a 22 month-sober friend who I've known for 30 years. Mike has offered to support me and be my lifeline in this battle against drinking. I've learned so much in such a short few days, So many experiences that he has had in his recovery that he has graciously shared with me, I can make it as you have iDavidi, and I thank you sincerely for your insightful list which really hit home to me.

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    Excellent post!

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