Kicked Heroin 14 months ago!
I was an active IV heroin user for 8 years. My story about how I got addicted is super long so I won't get into that right now, but getting clean was the hardest thing I've ever done in my entire life (and I've been through some hard ****** **** - excuse my language). I had a trifecta of things that got me to finally give up the heroin and SMART Recovery meetings is one of those things. I started going to SMART about 8 months before getting clean and it literally helped save my life. I am so grateful to have these meetings (in person and online). I was one of those "meetings don't do anything" people before I actually started going on a regular basis and now I swear by them. Meetings are medicine for me and without my medicine, I know that I will get very very sick again.
I never thought that I would make it out alive, and because I was so high all the time, that fact didn't bother me back then. Now that I am clean and my brain isn't full of fog, I feel extremely blessed to be alive today and I know that a higher power out there had their hands on me because I know I wouldn't be here today if someone or something wasn't protecting me. There's just no way I lived through everything I lived through without reason. I would absolutely love to someday share my entire story and hopefully prevent someone from going down the same path I did or help someone that's already in the throws of addiction to realize that a clean & sober life is worth living!! :)
Thank you for letting me share and taking the time to read my poor writing. (I've never been good at expressing myself in writing.)